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Seriously what happened to you? How long have you been playing broken beyond repair?  Your eyes are dark. You are lifeless like a mannequin. How long has it been since you have called anyone a friend 

Sinister is your stare, doom lurks over you. Your thoughts are without life. There is no color surrounding you. Given up, given in. Let Satan have the last word 

There is no swim in your sinking sand, long past your one mistake until you finish incomplete. Your bridges are burned, and ties cut. Your gut is pained with ulcers. Your heart races with compulsion. You wish it over now

Sitting one last night in shame, always placing blame. Listen to your daughters cry. You cursed her with your lack to pay. Eviction notice on its way 

When did you become helpless? When did you become so feeble minded, and lose your marbles? 

No one can make any sense of this. You are a lonely creature, death is pounding on your door. Even the score is that what you think? 

For what its worth I have long prayed for you to come around. Stop dragging people through your mud. You were once a man of noble character, now just a thud. Grave robber. God is to chose the day, and the hour

I pray God shakes you to your core wakes you from this selfish state. I can’t bear to think the play date satan is having with you. Did you invite him in for a drink or six. Wake up!

Lord shake him now, wake him for my kid’s sake. Grab his heart, and free him of his afflictions. No matter the time that has passed you will always be apart of me. 18 years is not easily dismissed

I am not hanging you out to dry, I am pleading with your broken heart to let God give you a fresh start. Give it all to him, every last reaper thought. You can laugh again. Quit bathing in your sin, lathering in the guilt, and laid quilt for your memorial, what purpose does this serve you? Get up

I have no claim on you other than that of our children. Please stop with remission know you are not beyond repair. Life has hurt us ALL very deep. God is greater than the wounds you keep, Give it all to Him 

Let God claim victory over your story, let Satan hiss away from you his prey. Keep Him so at bay, by crying out in Jesus Name

For this I pray that you find life, and life brand new. Happiness, and even a skip in your step. I have never wished you ill. For we both have suffered at our selfishness. Get up now, it is time. All it takes is looking up. I would not be so emphatic if I didn’t know this is possible if you… just as I did…Surrender

Please just surrender

Psalm 51- 10-14 10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.

11 Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.

12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.

13 Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.

14 Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.


Don’t give up before the miracle happens! Smile lots, forgive quickly, and never take life for granted!

9 thoughts on “Surrender

  1. What a cry from the heart Lisa. Remembering the song of Cory Asbury, Reckless Love. May the person you are praying for, encounter God in a profound way. God will leave the 99 to find that 1 and bring him to Himself. Praying that this will happen sooner than later for him🙏

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    1. That person is my ex husband. I am very happily remarried. I will always pray he finds what I have found. In the beginning at 20 we were so both young. His dad is a pastor. We started everything young, pregnant by 22. Married for 21 years total. In the beginning we were involved with ministry. We had to beautiful children. In the end we moved from Spokane Wa to Orlando Fl. 7 times, and alcohol became very prevalent in our lives. People started pulling away from our chaos. The moving alone was insanity. The drinking was utter sabotage. So here I am 7 years later, and free. I am close with his parents. They tell me he is still so lost. Blaming the world for all his woes. I used to do the same thing. We together were so toxic. I have known him since the 4th grade. I am not sure what it will take for him. We are all different in our breaking process. My kids don’t talk to him anymore, which I don’t encourage. They are 22, and 24 they can make their own choices. It is all very sad, and we all pray for him all the time to surrender. As of recent times are so perilous, we just keep pleading on bended knee. His parents have completely turned their son over to God. I love the song Reckless love! Rings true to my heart very much! He is sick, and I was too. I pray he finds what I have found sanity in surrendering! Blessings thank you for reading! God be with us all! Have an awesome Thursday! 🙏🏻💕

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