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Getting a little real

Real talk; 🙏🏻
I need to get real here, having a double mastectomy has been much harder emotionally than I ever anticipated. I know validation of being a woman does not come from that of vanity. I just know I did not take the time to grieve what I have lost. My emotional well-being has suffered as of recent. I am trying to live in the now, and am doing my best to practice acceptance. I can’t change what was, or that I know longer have these body parts. I also need to find my validation in God!

I have been very emotionally upset, which means I need to work on a few things personally. Asking for prayer from my dear family/friends. I have one more surgery November 9th. If I had it my way I would not go, but it is not my way. Please in all of this know I know how blessed I am to be cancer free, I just feel at odds with my new body. I was never a fake me makes me type of girl, and here I am getting my tissue expanders taken out for implants. I just wasn’t okay with nothing at all at the age of 46. Just asking for prayer for acceptance, and for my upcoming surgery to go without complication. God bless you all, I needed to get this off my chest (play on words)…🙏🏻💜

Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way.
2 Thessalonians 3:16

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Don’t give up before the miracle happens! Smile lots, forgive quickly, and never take life for granted!

21 thoughts on “Getting a little real

  1. Looking at this as a guy, because we are interesting creatures this way, dude, I’d go with the freaking Aston Martin set. I wouldn’t even think twice! I’d be like, “Doc, these babies better look awesome.”

    And I wouldn’t think twice about it. Without question.

    If I had to have a pec removed for the same reason, you bet your butt I’d get a matching one loaded in there.

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    1. To be very honest I have an incredible plastic surgeon. Tissues expanders are just horrible, and they could not be removed soon enough (they hurt, and all sutured in). Of course I will go for broke. It is just so different from a gal going in, and wanting new knockers. Double Mastectomy breasts can look good, but they don’t look anything like that gal’s. He is doing his best though, and I did since I am 46 I have certain requests. Just being real, my husband will be very happy. I also though did not want to look like just made star on “Debbie Does Dallas” lol! I am 5’2” and very petite. So that being said, I am learning to grieve what I had which for me were not bad at all. So I guess we will see in November if I have a better outlook on this whole surgery. I get what you’re saying for sure! 👍

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  2. You said it, “live in the now” and practice acceptance. I used that term recently, to a friend and we both agreed that it is good to focus on what we have now. The world is a better place with you in it, so remember how valuable your presence is to even people you have never met. Remember that especially when you feel bad. You’ve transformed in a profound way,not just your body but also your way of seeing the world. I am glad you made it to the other side and that you are here, in fighting form. Big hugs.

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    1. Thank you so very much, yes I said that. I try so hard to practice living in the now daily. It is something I had to learn, and I grateful for it too. Acceptance, yes I am getting there. Sometimes I need to write it out, to let it out. Be accountable for it! Thank you for commenting! All good stuff, blessings Lisa

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  3. Lisa, prayers for your surgery and for you in the journey of acceptance. May God continue to give you strength & courage – & Holy Hilarity (you are so amazing to make a joke “getting it off your chest!”) Blessings & germ-free hugs! 💐🤗💐🙏💐😷💐

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  4. I had a really, really hard time dealing with ovarian cancer at the age of 18. I plan on doing a post on it in the near future. I wanted a houseful of kids, but God said no… I had one, out of wedlock and he’s the best thing that ever happened to me. Going through what we’re going through “right now” can be really hard. Really hard, and sometimes all we can do is cry and struggle through it the best we know how. With God, we will come out stronger on the other side.
    Praying for you.

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    1. Thank you for sharing your story, God is always gracious. He always meets us, and is faithful! It is these times I know I am being stretched, and grown. God bless you! Thank you for reading too! Blessings 💜 Lisa

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  5. Father, l bring your daughter to the foot of your heart. You know every hair on her head, and every tear that falls; bottled up within your love. I pray for the upcoming surgery, and what her needs to face. May your peace be her portion, and your love be her strength! In Jesus’ name, Amen!

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  6. Dearest Lisa,…I love your heart so much. 💚 And God knows you, loves you, and has protected you. You are an incredible witness of faith. With that being said, HE covers your emotions and understands them! His son, our SAVIOR lived and FELT as a human~that’s what we are~human. Several in my family are survivors; you’re an overcomer. This process will have pain and you already know it well. Give yourself grace to mourn when needed as you’re doing. You have a family of believers supporting you. And that wonderful husband! 💚 Go for whatever allows you to live the most abundant and joyful version of life being uniquely YOU! I’ll have that day marked on my calendar to cover you in prayer. You’re loved Lisa. Be blessed and keep fighting with faith. 💚💜❤️🤗💕❣️

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    1. Thank you as always for reaching out with such grace, and kind words full of wisdom! I appreciate you! God uses you, and I am blessed by your words! Thank you for keeping me in prayer! God is always faithful, and I know I will get through all of this! 💜 He is my loving Father, and always has his very best for me. I just can’t always see it right here, and right now. Although I trust it! Blessings for an awesome rest of your week, in Him 🙏🏻💜 Lisa

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