Mute, my words to slurred to commute. A sleep in the steal of all that has life. My heart in dark caverns stop.
Everything is unfair in my coke bottle thick eyes. Yet shocked everything comes as a surprise. Contradiction in my affliction. Sorrow does not rain on my parade. No umbrella needed I am not protected. Vulnerable to every sip, and lick of that bottles drip.
A cadaver stiff, my body slowing. All my senses going. I know I am immortal, but the bottle seems a lifeline to some portal. I drag a toe tag wrapped around my barren foot. My life is soot. I drink to live, and live to drink.
Sitting in front of my tombstone in an inebriated state. Damn name better be carved in slate. I deserve, I need, I want, I should. Famous words of the alcoholic. Memorized by my tonic. God then stepped in with defibrillation. Not in deserve, but persevere of what little is left. Last chance for one last dance of a beautiful life. For which I had not known.
IV fluids on standby. Flush the plague. My life so vague, why would He think to hydrate me with saline. V tach no more. Life is being pumped in. My senses are being pronounced, I hear a prayer being sung over my spirit.
His prayer is delivering me out of the darkness. My whole body is being filled with life abundant. Sight, sound, touch, taste! My life is not a waist. Coke bottle glasses removed from my face. I see the most gentle, compassionate eyes. A silhouette of a man, with soft whispers prayer kept me from hanging on by a moment.
I was instantly falling in love with Him. I was desperate for change, forgot all I was lacking. Starvation for choose no longer. Taking His invitation. Falling more in love with Him, letting go of all I had held on to. Nothing to lose, with my life revived. Check for pulse, strong in Him. “One day at a time”.
To put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness. Ephesians 4:22-24