“This above all: to thine own self be true.”
“Courage, dear heart”. ~C.S. Lewis
As I share this quote it is so applicable to me as anyone else in today’s day in age.
I am having to have another surgery (4th one) for complications with my breast implants from my breast cancer. This surgery is taking place next Wednesday. I am having to breathe deep, and pray often. Stop, drop, and pray!
This is not something I signed up for, and I was so ready to be back to feeling my normal. That is not the case, and when you have a flat tire you fix it. So that is what we are doing. 4-6 weeks of recovery, and Zoom meetings await me once again. Thanking God I am not in control, and He is! Courage!
“Attitude is contagious, is yours worth catching”?
“Is prayer your steering wheel or your spare tire?” ~Corrie ten Boom
“Let’s not merely say that we love each other; let us show the truth by our actions”. ~Toby Mac
There is not a time I see a greater need for this than in today’s day in age. Action!
Asked by the Modesto Paper to my children’s great grandfather who is 98, and was married 65 years to the love of his life. “How do you make a marriage work for that long“? His response “easy you just stick to your vows”. His love has passed away, and he still lives on strong happily in the moment.
Happy 3 year Anniversary to my boyfriend, husband, love, lover, best friend, and soul mate. Forever buddies, I will love you forever, and this marriage was a gift from God! Can’t imagine not waking next to you! I meant my vows, and pray we can be like my kids great grandparents. Marriage is not easy always, but it worth every memory and the growing pains!
“Rarely have we seen a person fail who has throughly followed our path” ~Bill W. & Dr. Bob
I wake this morning with 8 years of sobriety all by the grace of God. I get to live, love, and laugh in the solution today. Alcohol was but a symptom. I was so spiritually sick, and today I begin with thy will not mine be done. One day at a time. I am not exempt from picking up that bottle, it is solely contingent on my spiritual house. This morning my heart is right before God. So with much gratitude I will celebrate this day of 8 years, giving God all the glory for my story.
I was a bottom feeder. I was at my lowest. Bruised, battered, and stained. I had danced with the devil day in, and day out. Enough to cause insanity to anyone. Today when I dance I am a princess, and I choose to dance with my King. Far from perfect I am, but today I have the tools to recognize my character defects. I am aware when I need to stop, drop, and pray. On any given day God’s address is NOW. I have a daily reprieve, and I hang with the winners. I came in willing to do whatever was asked of me with the desperation of a dying woman.
8 years later I get to share my experience, strength, and hope with others. I get the gift of working with other women. I get the gift of serving in my home group. I say get, because one sip of booze and all bets are off.
I daily wake powerless over alcohol. I daily turn my will and life over to the care of God as I understand Him. I daily have God step in, and do for me what I can’t even often see what He is doing for me in the moment. He does for me what I can’t do for myself, and I have willingness to see what He is teaching me in those moments.
8 years of peace, and serenity. I used to thrive off of chaos, and calamity. I don’t do well there today. Thank God for the gifts of this simple program, and being open minded as well willing for 8 years of “one day at a time”.
Sobriety is a journey not a destination, and a beautiful one at that.
Thank you to all my husband, children, family, and all friends of Bill W. and Dr. Bob. My hearts biggest thank you is to God who saved a wretch like me. Ashes to beauty. From wretch to princess.
You can find me today in a room listening to others stories. As well sharing my experience, strength, and hope. Praying that my hope might whisper into just one ear from someone else who sits in their chair for the first time like I did 8 years ago lost wanting to find the solution.
Here is to never forgetting where I came from, every tear shed. From the darkest caverns, to the highest mountain peaks I pray my life shouts JOY, PEACE, and HOPE!
God could, and would if He were sought!
“Set guard over my mouth Lord. Keep watch over the door of my lips”. ~Psalm 141:3