“One of the greatest prisons people live in is the fear of what other people think”. ~Toby Mac
You don’t have to be imprisoned any longer, let God set you free. He will remove all the shackles that hold you captive. Whatever fear you have allow him unlock the door, and walk out a free man today! For it is by His grace we get to live in His mercy! Don’t let the world define you, let God define you. For what profit is there for man to gain the whole world, and lose his soul!
“Every breath is a gift from the giver of life”. ~S.Graves
I wake up with gratitude to my Lord and Savior for 47 years of the precious breath of life. Countless times God has sparred me when I was spiritually sick in my active alcoholism. As well this last year with my diagnosis of breast cancer.
He gives life, and He takes it away. God isn’t done with me yet, and for that today I celebrate the day He chose me to be part in this world February 17, 1974. May I be used by Him, May I be the difference today with the Holy Spirit which resides in me.
You can chose to have God be a fantasy, or a reality. You can chose to look around, and see His beauty written all over the canvas of our earth. Or you can chose to see it as some sort of happenstance. Blind faith can be hard, like believing in a Santa Claus.
I choose to believe, as I have seen God do miracles in circles around my life. God doesn’t just show up today, He shows off. He has saved me from the depths of myself countless times over. His grace, and mercies saved a wretch like me. He saved a fallen down drunk, that had freely given away every ounce of sanity that I once had. He restored me to sanity, He gifted me life free in Him.
God is no fairytale, or tall tale. He is the creator of the universe. If we come to belief that He sent His one, and only son to die the most brutal death so that we might have life, we in turn get an eternal retirement plan that is out of this world. God is my everything today. I can’t imagine still living, and self loathing in the bottom of that dead cold bottle. I smelled of deaths door, and now I have the fragrance of the most beautiful flowers, watered daily by Father’s hand. I chose life today in Him.
Fantasy no, life at its realest most raw as well vulnerable. Absolutely! The best thing I have done in my 47 years next week, here on earth is turn my will and my life over to the care of God. He is my reality. I have to walk with Him daily in order to have the life I have today. With this comes a life beyond my wildest dreams. His plans for me are far better than any I could have ever dreamt for myself. I choose, and chose God! Give me Jesus!
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16
“I’ve read the last page of the Bible. It’s all going to turn out all right.” ~Billy Graham
For much hope resides here, and I just keep my eyes on the prize. I rest at the foot of the cross. I know that today is where I reside with God, and His will be done. Peace and serenity can be found in an instant of surrendering my will to Him.
Your prompt for #JusJoJan and Stream of Consciousness Saturday is: “the beginning, the end.” Write about the beginning of something and the end of something. Bonus points if your first sentence contains “the end” and your last sentence contains “the beginning.” <– Read that again. Have fun!
The end of my pot of coffee is here oh dear. I sip it all through out my day to wake me, and warm me. The taste lingers in my mouth, and the aroma permeates through my house. There is nothing better to wake to. A new day is here. A new horizon to peer out into.
Morning excitement as my senses are aroused with the smell of fresh brewed beans. I am keen to the smell. Then comes the early morning sound of the peculating of my pot. What is the end of my pot now was hours ago a new beginning.
I cling to this today, in a world of uncertainty I find myself in prayer. I shall not live in fear, letting go of all at the cross on Calvary.
I find solace in the throne room right at my Father’s feet. I know without a doubt I can trust my unknown future to a very known God. The world may seem crazed, I just have to keep my focus on praising Him in His name! Father “thy will be done”.
This new world order is what must be for you to fulfill things I can not see. I am on bended knee, with faith over fear. You always have our best at heart, you have it down to an art. Even though we can not see the whole picture, you are holding the finished masterpiece in the palm of your hand! On this your truth I stand!
And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ. Philippians 1:6
This one thing I know undoubtedly in my heart today. There is no greater love known to man than of my savior Jesus Christ. My life as long as I walk with Him, and my heart is right before Him is limitless. I can have the beautiful life when I say “thy will not mine be done”. It doesn’t mean that my life is easy nor does not have pain, grief, or even sorrow. It means that His love for me is limitless, and with that love I can get through the storms that this life brings. It is not all rainbows, butterflies, and Cotton Candy. Yet it is so divine.
He can help me dance in the rain, turn ashes to beauty, and lift my hands in praise in the mist of my pain.
Limitless unconditional love for me, and He is faithful to complete the work He started in me. I don’t know about you, but I couldn’t imagine not signing up for such a thing in my life today. Heck yeah, I signed up! Please God help me to keep my end of the deal. I love living my life today in peace that surpasses all understanding, and without chaos. A mind of clarity viewed through God’s lens for my heart. The beauty of simplicity.
And this my friend is just the start because His love is indeed limitless beyond all comprehension to that of man. It is hard to understand. He does miracles in, and around my life. He shows up, and He even shows off. His love for me is real! Surreal! Sovereignty, my heart is no longer bankrupt. Poverty no more. Jesus shines!
“But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven.” Matthew 10:33
DC talk said it best, “What will people think when they hear that I’m a Jesus freak? (It’s the…) What will people do (…freakshow) when they find that it’s true”? Ho ho Ho ho ho-o Ho ho
This morning I am readying myself to see my surgeon, and yes I am very emotionally/physically drained. I cried upon waking which is not my norm. I was quickly reminded of the gift of the breath of life I have. I was reminded how much worse it could be. I was reminded how His mercies are new EVERYmorning. I was reminded that “this too shall pass”. I may have to do this often throughout my day, recognize how great a God I serve. I may be on repeat of hoe He is holding the pen, if I allow Him. How He is in charge, and when I try to take over things just go awry. My heart has the desire for His compass. I know His compass always has my best at heart! It’s art really! Beautiful majestic art! Letting go, and letting Jesus my author my savior hold the pen!
Last night I was advised to go the Emergency room after talking to the on call surgeon. I am one week post swapping out my tissue expanders for implants. The last surgery in my breast cancer journey. Yesterday was the worst I felt the whole time since my surgery.
I was in tears when I was told my husband could not be with me at all. They were doing a work up for sepsis. I had tears streaming my face as my phone would not even connect to make a call out.
Thankfully after a long day with a fever, and feeling very nauseous my blood work came back all clear. My blood pressure was high when I got there. I refused all medication while there, because of all my allergies. I was the only person who could advocate for my own health. They were going to give something on my list of allergies.
So at the end of it all the conclusion is I have a pretty good sized Seroma. I will be seeing my surgeon tomorrow to see how we are going to address this. I am in a lot of pain. I am so swollen, but thank God I am home. Thank God it was not sepsis. Makes you realize how precious life is, and how fast things can change.
I was so weak, and sleepy. The Seroma was just making me feel crappier than I even knew. I have had many of you responding with prayers, and kind words. I just wanted to update you all on what is happening as of now.
So I am resting, and my husband was given 2 more days off of work to be with me. I so appreciate all of your prayers! Lord willing I will stop draining soon. I just keep holding on to “this too shall pass”.
God bless you all, may God be with you all as we approach the coming New Year!