IF YOU COULD ONLY SENSE how important you are to the lives you meet; how important you can be to the people you may never even dream of. There is something of yourself that you leave at every meeting with another person”. ~Fred Rogers
“So many people are hanging on by the thinnest of threads. Treat people well. You could just be that thread.” ~Toby Mac
My husband wakes with 30 years with his obsession that was lifted from alcohol. Thankfully the recovery program works if you work. Actually when you do the deal, it starts to work you! All by the grace of God! Happy 30 years honey, one day at a time. Keep on keeping on!
I don’t know what my future holds, but I do know who holds my future”. ~Tim Tebow
A new weekly prompt for me, excited to add something new to my blog.
On this particular day I decided I feel like writing about my most recent “big life change”. It has been two long years for me(with my breast cancer journey), and after MANY resumes I landed a wonderful job.
God did for me what I could not do for myself. I was getting many computer auto generated, thank you for your application but we will not be moving forward with you at this time. For the life of me I could not figure out why. All jobs I was more than qualified for. All jobs I was more than capable of doing, and doing well.
One day an email came back personalized with sincerely, and a name attached. So I felt God leading me to call this company, and ask what I was doing wrong or how I could change my game to have my resume considered. This gentleman said he had never had anyone ever do this. He was intrigued. I was invited in that day to interview with him, and two other’s from the Human Resources Department. I was amped, and felt God was moving mountains.
As we walked out after the interview he said it was a pleasure, and he would call me on Monday. Well he did indeed call me, and said I was in the running. He needed three professional references, and if they checked out I would not be called in for a second interview like he originally intended. He said they hoped to have this buttoned up by Wednesday. He was very clear that I would know either way. Wednesday came, and went with no word.
In the interim I just kept praying as well I kept submitting other resumes. I did email him to thank him for the opportunity to interview, as well again on that Thursday to see where they were at in the deciding process. Silence all day, it was some what maddening.
Later that day after four, as my husband was turning the key to our door my phone rang. It was him, and I couldn’t contain my excitement. He was calling to offer me the job, and emailed me my offer letter. So God was moving mountains. God stepped in at a time where I was feeling so lost, and I needed to know why nothing was coming through. My guess was I have been out of work for three years. At 48 years old next month having the title of receptionist at a corporate office, of a very large company here is not to shabby. As well Monday through Friday is just awesome! My body is still tired, and it will take some getting used to. My brain though couldn’t handle much more of this being at home day in and day out business. My brain doesn’t do well when it is idle. As well I will be contributing again.
So on this particular day I wanted to share what God did for me. There is so much hope in my life today, and all by the grace of God. If you’re ever stuck, I am sharing this as proof of a God who does indeed move mountains. He is faithful when we go to Him, and cry out to Him in prayer. He hears our cries, and He is a loving God. So I say with much gratitude, Praise God for my new job. I will praise Him in the morning, and all day through. For my God always has my best, I start my new job Monday the 17th! Wohoo 🥳
What are chances even in the midst of a storm you can see the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow that still has yet to be revealed
What are the chances on a clearly cruddy day you can still lift your hands in praise with an attitude of gratitude because your heart Jesus can heal
What are the chances as the pandemic gets worse, and we are still wearing our masks you can muster a smile underneath for the gift of life you breathe. Being still knowing He is God
What are the chances as the fear of our nation grows and feeds off its sheep you can know Biden may be President but Jesus Christ is King
What are the chances I know for me I will not be under their lock and key. For Jesus my savior holds the world in His hands. Faith over Fear, what are the chances this is how you are living your life. You too can be set free
Have no fear Jesus is near, and He hears the cries of His people. Chances are He already knows how this story ends…amen!
“You’ve never gone too far that God can’t redeem you, restore you, forgive you, and give you a second chance”.
What are the chances He’s given given you already more than one. I know He has me
I’ll take my chances with my Savior and keep looking up, because He has picked me back up time and time again. Chances are He already knows how my story ends…
“I’d rather stand with God and be condemned by the world than to stand with the world and be condemned by God”. ~Denzel Washington
It’s okay to not always be okay. It doesn’t mean I’m not grateful it means I’m struggling. It doesn’t mean I don’t pray because I do. It just means I’m not okay for today. Maybe tomorrow I don’t know we’re not there yet.
As I sit here waiting to leave for my appointment praying to get my drain tubes out as I have hives all over my torso from the Tagaderm dressing, and one drain clogged that caused a Seroma that will have to be drained I also reflect.
I reflect on this almost 49 year old woman who was crying uncontrollably while her husband gently undressed her to ease her discomfort last night, and helped her into bed. A woman who is trying to find, and grasp the new her
. She is shy for her husband to look at her. The woman who has had a loss, the loss of a body part. A woman who is desperately trying to love herself all over again. You can all say it’s better this way. I know all of this. My body rejected my implants, yet it doesn’t make it any easier to accept.
I can remember people writing in my 7th grade annual to not be jealous of the walls. Trust me I finally came of age, and was happy with what God gave me. This though is different from just being flat chested. I have an incision from one side on my chest to the other, and just my skin. Nothing that resembles breasts at all. I also know as I write this I am just one of millions of woman just like me, but this is my personal journey.
I am doing my best, and my best is all I can do at this moment. I can say this, I thank God for gifting me the man he did. He gently loves me, and lets me go through this process(which sucks). I thank God for being cancer free, and now I pray that God will help me as He has with everything else in my life get through this next new phase in life. I am also grateful for the plastic surgeon who expressed such remorse, and empathy for my situation. It is not his fault my body rejected my implants 2 times. My body is just made different. I am breast cancer warrior! The cancer is gone, and so our my breasts. The older I get, the more I am realizing how intricately made I am…
“for it was You who created my inward parts; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will praise You because I have been fearfully and wonderfully made”.
I am unable to post any pictures do to storage issues that I don’t have time to take care of at the moment. Hopefully soon enough though…
I got Covid last month when I had posted about my Breast Implant Illness, and my surgery to remove my implants was postponed. It is tomorrow, and I am so anxious. I am trying to know there’s a place where fear has to face the God I know. This is that place. Tomorrow at 2:00 is this place. As I write this tears are welling up in my eyes, I am just tired in every aspect of life. Yet I am blessed, and this I know.
My breast cancer journey has been so long, and this body is very tired. I know it is the absolute right thing to do, yet I am human. I do fear the unknown. I don’t know what that first glance in the mirror will be like. I already lost my breasts 2 and a half years ago, but aesthetically I have had two sets of implants now. So I don’t know what a flat chest will look like.
I have such a beautiful support system (my husband), family, and friends are surrounding us in prayer! Please if you pray, pray with us. I just ask for peace that surpasses all understanding.
I don’t have a lot in me today. So I will keep it short. Blessings all…🙏🏻
“Prayer is the most important conversation of your day. Take it to God before you take to anyone else”. ~Toby Mac