I was the only woman once again waiting in the Mammography waiting area, all my tests had been done. Woman after woman walked out of the Mammography screening being told, “alright you can get dressed, and just expect a reminder letter for your annual check up in the mail”.
I knew this old song and dance all to well, they were going to want more imaging, and possibly an ultrasound. The minutes were eating at me. I was agitated as each woman came from the dressing area, with their phone in hand giggling “yep I’m all done”…
Ugh! Just go home then I thought to myself, stop rubbing it in. A good half an hour had passed, as my husband waited for me in the waiting room. I then hear “Lisa will you come with us”? “The radiologist would just like to get some more imaging”. I seriously had been here so many times. I was in such distress all I heard was blah, blah, blah…
I knew this was not your casual breast check appointment. I knew I was not going to hear what I wanted to hear that day. God was speaking though, and prepping me for what was to come. He was able to penetrate my heart through all the blah’s, and muck my brain had become.
After the imaging they had me go in a room, and wait for the doctor to come speak with me. I needed my husband, I was frantic asking them to please go retrieve him from the waiting room. “Brad that’s his name”, can you go get him please”. “Yeah Brad”! They could not have hurried any faster on my account.
So there we were hand in hand, waiting as we both knew what was next was going to be the prelude to a very long journey that neither of us could ever have been prepared for.
God is so gracious to meet us in our time of desperation. He was gingerly speaking to my heart, as the Doctor explained all the areas of concern. He was there to softly calm our souls. His presence was so known. All the unrest dissipated.
My husband, and I walked out hand in hand gripped tightly. No words were exchanged. We made the appointments for three separate biopsies to take place at one time, all in the same breast. All in the next week (sigh)! We realized no one was taking this lightly. So that is when we began taking it all daily before the Lord. For it is all we knew to do, pray!
And so our journey began hand in hand…and gripped ever so tightly
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
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