I feel like the Macklemore & Ryan Lewis song Thrift Shop. “I’m gonna pop some tags”. Instead I popped my stitches, and I don’t have Twenty dollars in my pocket.
Well when I do something I do it to the finest. I woke in immense pain in the middle of the night, and I knew something was very wrong with my left breast.
Making my way to the mirror, and with the pain running down my left shoulder to my elbow I could see the deformation in my left breast. My husband could not believe what he saw, he too knew it was bad!
So they are stating I popped my pectoral muscle stitches dislodging, and rotating my left tissue expander. It is so morphed looking. It all moved right, and is hard as a rock in one lump area. They have taken me down to zero activity. As well I am in quarantine from all people/stores. I can’t even get comfortable. Yet it is not life threatening just excruciating.
I have a tele-Med appointment Tuesday. I am pretty sure the outcome will be to ready me for surgery. So what was to wait until after the holidays, is not going to happen. As well all the sweet progress I have made on our new place has been put on hold. I am trying to hold onto Pslam 46:10 Be still and know that I am God.
As well this is all totally out of my control in all honesty I did nothing I am not allowed to do, except maybe listen when my body was pushing back.
So there it is as I write from my pillow on my bed, and drinking tea. Of course thinking it could not be any sooner that this gets taken care of. This is the most miserable I have been since my double mastectomy. Here is to some sleepless nights, and still seeking His will be done not mine. I do know though this too shall pass, I just wish the pain wasn’t so great. So my presence in WP may be a little less, as I try to rest here and there. God bless you all, His will not mine!
May God bless you and heal you in Jesus name.
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Thank you all prayer is coveted! I am trying to trust God! That is all I know to do!
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Praying God takes the pain away and heals you!
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Thank you I tore my muscle as well, and I do know surgery will be a must. It was the next step. I was just waiting until after the holidays. Now I can’t the pain is too much. I didn’t even get to talk to my surgeon. He is great, but it would have given me a little more comfort talking to him before Tuesday. This is all a trust God, and know that my life is His. Fear steps in, and I immediately have to pray! Thank you for the kind words, and prayers! I guess I should have listened to the push back my body was giving me. Blessings 🙏🏻
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Lisa, I’m sorry you’re in such pain. Constant pain is a misery! Are you able to take anything for it? I hope you will be able to rest as much as you can before your surgery on the 9th. If you can, listen to some audios . . . or get hubby to read to you. 😀
I’ll be praying for you. x
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I changed my surgery to January 18th because of our move. Now though I will have to get in and have it done ASAP! I have to go through the ropes of Covid testing, and all that stuff. I don’t even get to talk to my surgeon until Tuesday. I guess I tore the muscle too. Pain is Ibuprofen, and Tylenol. I appreciate your prayers! Needed for sleep, it hurts to breathe and yawn. Such a crappy thing to happen!
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I hope the medication helps a little – the sooner you get the surgery, the better. I appreciate that pain is difficult to cope with, both physically and mentally. Another blogger friend told me to keep focussing on Jesus throughout pain. I’ll be praying for you. God bless. x
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Heal fast, Lisa.
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Thank you! Healing takes sleep, and I can’t get comfortable to sleep. Gonna be a long few days until my appt. with my surgeon!
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