One day at a time

I don’t play the clown gloating with makeup thinking for a second that if my spiritual house is not up to spec that next drink is not just a fingers length from me yet

I don’t play the jokester I know the spider is dead, but the cob web is still there waiting for its black widow, one brush with that venom I will be dead. My spirit must thrive on all that is alive, and serene so my spiritual house stays clean

I don’t play the harlequin it is not a good look on me. My alcoholism is doing push-ups waiting for me to have a hiccup to unbearable for life. I might as well pick up a knife, and slit my own throat. Cunning, baffling, powerful it is that toxic Gin

I don’t play the jester. By the grace of God today I am 7 years sober. There is nothing a drink will not make worse. I don’t need to hide airliners in my purse. For this is a daily “one day at time” reprieve. I need no alcohol in me. I am better off sober

I don’t play the fool, you can’t school me into thinking any different. For I have a solution to keep my alcoholic self at bay. Just for today, I start with God thy will not my will be done. There is where I have the best hope at laying my head once again on my pillow with peace, and serenity. With not an ounce of alcohol in me

I don’t play the zany. Loco is not my plight. Might as well play with death. Hope is my life. The knife drawer is closed, and from my faucet flows living water. My sobriety is based off of my spiritual house, and I have cleaned house. This though is done, “one day at time” there is not a single mouse

God, I offer myself to Thee – To build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will. Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of Life.” 3rd Step Prayer in recovery


8 thoughts on “One day at a time

    1. All by the grace of God, and thank you! I had to be willing, and I was so willing for I needed hope to stay alive. My physical, and spiritual being were just dead inside. I am alive in Christ today! He is so such a loving Father! I taste, and see that the Lord is good today! 💜

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  1. Beautifully written, Lisa. This is so inspiring and many people will be helped and strengthened by your testimony. I know I am because I used to drink too … for the same reason as you did – to numb painful feelings.

    Thank you, Father, that Lisa is free from the devastating effects of alcohol and that she lets you guide her day by day. Amen.

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    1. Thank you so much for the beautiful words! God is so faithful to complete the work He started. From the what a have learned in sobriety drinking was, but a symptom. None of wanted to feel. Then it gets so progressive we don’t know how to live everyday life without being numb. I am so grateful I have God, that gifted me the tools to learn to live my life sober today. He graciously showed me the doors to a program that has only grown me closer to Him, as well to helping others. It is all about turning my will, and life over to Him daily! I have to step back, and get out of self. Letting go, and letting God! Today I want to feel, and yes even the most painful of things. It grows me, and I learn to lean on God. No more leaning on the bottle, that was a road to my eternal death. Thank God He saved a wretch like me! Amazing grace how sweet the sound! Have an awesome weekend!

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    1. It is super rad what’s happens when we surrender. Or rather I did! God is amazing, and His grace is too! Thank you so much! It was a great day, now to keep on keeping on! The party is over, now back to the daily reprieve! It was a super fun day of joy! I appreciate you coming in, and saying what you did!

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